A question to be answered. A question for me to ponder. A decision to be made with no regrets. The many factors that I have to consider. Consequences that I have to bear. It's 4 months. 12 hours of flight to Frankfurt. Stay or go?
I have no answers at all. So what if I ask for opinions from Dear, family, friends? I still have to make the final decision myself. It's a rare opportunity indeed, at the same time I couldn't bare to put down my feelings. It's always easy to be said than done. My friends told me it is a very good opportunity. But will you really go without hesitation?
I'm struggling with this decision that no one could help, not even my closest. A mixed feelings that I'm going through when I picked up the call. For just that instance, too many things went through my mind. I couldn't feel the happiness anymore.
Now that nobody is objecting, the decision lies in me and nobody else. No way can I back out after confirmation. Then again, it's redundant for me to apply for OSEP again next year.
I'm so tired right now after a day's work in HumanLink. I dunno whether or not I'm in the right state of mind to make wise decision. I felt as if my body has been pulled apart. If only, I can put my feelings in a box and packed it in my luggage. I won't have such a difficult time deciding whether or not to go.
What if the relationship just ends subsequently? Of cos many people will said it's fate. But isn't it easier to keep a relationship going if I'm staying? There's many ways on how each of us sees it. After all, I'm just worried things might go wrong after I come back.
Still staying up,
pondering the same qns that's in my mind..
Can someone give me an answer?
